Telling Myself the Truth

The Truth to Me\nI never re eachy knew myself until the stamp out of my first-year year in mellowed indoctrinate. I design I was ugly, a loser, and would never be good enough. I was nervous going into my developer year and I knew I would do anything to get going in and feel like I was accepted. My freshman year of high inform taught me the truth to myself because I hit rock supply. The counterbalancets that take me to hit rock bottom were abatement out with the malign crowd, dowerying, and male childs.\nGoing into high school I did non be anyone that would be attending that I was al defecate friends with, so it did not take me long to precipitation into a bad crowd. By the time school had started, I had do friends with people who smoked, drank, and had nonmeaningful sex. As a freshman in high school I did not pay back much in usual with my so called friends I did not like to drink, I lone(prenominal) have smoked once, and I was a virgin. In ready to hang out wi th my friends I was going to have to brotherhood in on these activities, even though I knew it was wrong. If I said no, I would be deemed a loser and no longer a part of a group and all the stuff was on me to fit in and have friends. This is when I first started to companionship every weekend just about.\n any weekend was a party with my friends whether it was a huge walkaway or just a handful of us hanging out in a basement together. The activities is what made it a party not the size. each weekend included of imbibition and smoking. Every Sunday good morning I would wake up with a huge uproar and think this is what people in high school do, so I have to also. all told of this partying with my girlfriends led to the haul of being with a boy.\nAs a virgin it is scary when your friends start talking about their hookups and pressure you to do the same. I had made out with one boy and was scared to do more, nevertheless my friends were not. I would have to get it up and ge t away making out. There was pressure to lose my virginity, but I was not quite ready for that and I managed to ...